Horray!

Finally things are seeming to start to get together and work out okay. I got a job, and although it is only part time and only until late July, I love it and I am so thankful for the experience. I am working as a teaching aid for special ed summer school. There are 7 kids in our class and they are all so adorable, and super bright, smart and unique. I really couldn't ask for a better job right now. Now the challenge will be finding something to fill its place when the summer school ends. I can be a substitute for the school district, but I'll have to do something else when I'm not doing that.

I finally received my degree information and I found out that I did in fact graduate in May, but somehow I still received distinction. Plus I had the pleasant surprise of finding out that I graduated cum laude as well! So for now things are going a little bit better and I can live with myself a little bit more. One more rent payment on the hideous apartment and the future is ahead. I'm crossing my fingers that things keep going along this surprisingly pleasant path!

Just 'cause I'm actually online for fun...

So update... horray I suppose. I've been busy despite not being employed. I've been looking for a job almost every day and riding my bike a lot. Although now it's over at Mark's so I'm not able to use it cause he's not home! I went to a job fair yesterday. Nothing really exciting, it was rather small and uneventful. I did get a pretty awesome Rockem Sockem Robots-esque pen from SPSS (a statistical analysis software company). I'm just rather upset that I haven't heard back from anyone really about jobs. I wish they would at least just reject me so I wouldn't hang on to a slim chance that I might still get a job. It saddens me that I'm not employed, although I know a lot of people aren't and my mom even told me it took my dad 6 months to get a job out of college. I'm starting to think that I should just go ahead and get a job at Caribou Coffee or something and keep searching for something more substantial for now.

That mixed with my friend suddenly moving out to Arizona have been toying with my emotions and I'm rather touchy lately. I don't like being such a loose cannon, but I don't know how to control it I suppose. Sometimes I think I'm just plain crazy how I go from one end to another. I suppose it's just a side effect of stress. I just hate feeling depressed.... nothing is working out and everything seems topsy-turvy. I guess I just was too confident about the way everything would turn out.

well this is just a minuscule rant about my apparent crankiness. I really don't have anything nice to say so I'll cut this short. I'll hope for better days.

This is all a bunch of bull....

I feel like no one takes me seriously as an undergraduate. I'm just pond scum to TAs with power trips and Professors as old as dirt. I had a meeting today and when I got there my professor was in with a grad student. I tried to poke my head in but the door was basically closed in my face. If I had been in with the professor she would have kicked me out because she had another meeting. It's complete bull crap. She has constantly forgotten my appointments, been up to 30 minutes late and had the nerve to e-mail me wondering where I was. How long am I supposed to wait for you? I'm just so sick of it. And I feel like I can't stand up for myself because it will affect my grade, or I won't get a recommendation I need in order to get a good research job. I know that they wouldn't be allowed necessarily to do such a think, grade wise at least, but in my world it seems entirely possible. I'm just so pissed off. And that TA last Friday, telling me that I would loose points because I was at my grandfather's funeral?!! what the Hell kind of education system are they running here? I know i shouldn't take it all personally, but still.... it feels so unfair and unjust. I feel like such an underdog. I do my work, I try hard... but I feel like I'm still shot down or not taken seriously because I"m an undergraduate student. I'm so upset by all of this nonsense and crap. I'm too pissed off to think. I'm tired of waiting for meetings. Sick and tired of it!

Dude Earthquake!

Yes folks! My roommates and I just felt an earthquake. In Illinois.... and we're like 200 miles north of where it happened! woah!

http://earthquake.usgs.gov/eqcenter/recenteqsus/Quakes/us2008qza6.php

Random Thoughts...

Here are several random thoughts as I am trying... and not succeeding... to work on my thesis project in the phonetics lab.

-The clouds yesterday looked like the happy clouds from the Mario Bros games... and it just took me three tries to spell 'clouds' correctly... I'll blame it on the keyboard...

-OMG Facebook!

-I have no idea what the hell I'm doing. I've lost all connection I had with my thesis, and I feel like it will never get done. The grades for my transcript are due May 19th, but I still haven't gotten a straight answer on the whole getting departmental distinction. I'm sure I have to go talk to countless people about that.

-my left eye hates me.

-I have a whole crapton of things to do... and of course I'm far too unmotivated and lazy to get them done... thus me sitting here blogging.

-perhaps I will finally dye my hair tonight... after putting it off time and again over the weekend.

-I don't even know why I bother to put periods at the end of my "bullet points". I suppose they are complete sentences.

-I just used the phrase "OMG Facebook!" above didn't I? Crap.

-this is becoming rather Woody Allenesque. It's probably a good think that no one really reads this.

-I'm so lazy I don't even update my blog everyday like I've wanted to. I guess I never really have much to say anyway. i'm not really controversial, and my daily life of a linguist is not exactly dangerous or interesting... unless a new IPA symbol is created... then I suppose it could be both.... or if my thesis and random theories displease the chompsky-labov gods. then we have a problem....

-p.s. i'm not all that funny.

-they still have the posters up from the lab open house. my name will be mysteriously infamous among the lab crowd.

-i'm graduating in 3 weeks... holy crap. ohmygod help!

-I should start that Karma paper... I need to find a good source so I can extract long pointless quotes to fill the 10pages of BS that I'll end up writing.

-I really am not as self defeating as my post appears... in fact right now I'm being an egomaniac... as evident from the insanely long post based purely on my inner random thoughts....

- I suppose I should get some work done, so this trip to the lab is not entirely useless.

-perhaps i shall do this weekly... the random thoughts thing... perhaps some actually interesting and intellectually stimulating thoughts will emerge? we shall see!

-hey look at that! it's 4:15 on 4/15!

what I see

I intended this to be a song... although it'll probably never be sung outside of my head.

The subject is pretty straightforward and frank. It's meant to be obvious.

It's the first thing besides papers that I've written in a while and it's actually a shock to me that it's on this topic...
but anywho.... enjoy

What I See

Make-up lies
Unreal size
I don’t fit in

You tell me
You have to be
Just like them

Paparazzi
Starbuck coffee
It’s all the fuckin’ same

Bleach blond hair
Like I care
I want to escape

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see

Magazines
And beauty queens
Why do I feel so lost?

Many guys
Fashion crimes
Superficial has become norm

Hollywood
If you could
We’d all bow down

Come on Barbie
Let’s go party
It’s all about wastin’ life

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see

Veggie spas
Botox moms
I can’t tell what is real

Huge cars
Skanky bars
We just can’t stay still

Crack cocain
It’s insane
We have to be like that

Size two
Nothin’ new
And you’re ugly if you’re not

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see

Come on mirror
You must be wrong
Everyone is six foot tall

Skinny jeans
Sex for dreams
It’s all about money

Pilled erection
To perfection
We just have to all fit in

Self mutilation
Lost all communication
To me…

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see

I’m not you
But I’m not me
I’m exactly what you see

Everyday
I loose my way
In the sea of false beauty

Compromise
My bad disguise
I can only cry… so much

I have to be
What I see
Inside

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see

Six Weeks!

So there's six weeks left until I'm kicked out into the real world. It's a little scary, but exciting. I'm waiting very impatiently to hear back from Maryland about that fellowship. I don't think I would be able to find anything better than that for the year. Otherwise I think I'll be stuck working at the office for the year. I'd need to ask for a raise... Anywho... the job market for Linguists fresh from a bachelors program is not great.... so if anyone knows of any job openings.... :-P

This week isn't terribly busy so far, but I know the next few weeks coming up will be crazy. I can't wait until my thesis is written and I have something wonderful to show for it. It's been a long road... and I have yet to see the end in sight. (Yeah... a little redundant....)

Well I suppose this would be a good time to end rambling.

ciao for now

Some great "W" quotes

from jokes.comedycentral.com

I think this proves some things...

"If we don't succeed, we run the risk of failure."
...George W. Bush

"Republicans understand the importance of bondage between a mother and child."
...Governor George W. Bush

"Welcome to Mrs. Bush, and my fellow astronauts."
...Governor George W. Bush

"Mars is essentially in the same orbit...Mars is somewhat the same distance from the Sun, which is very important. We have seen pictures where there are canals, we believe, and water. If there is water, that means there is oxygen. If oxygen, that means we can breathe."
...Governor George W. Bush, 8/11/94

"The Holocaust was an obscene period in our nation's history. I mean in this century's history. But we all lived in this century. I didn't live in this century."
...Governor George W. Bush, 9/15/95

"I believe we are on an irreversible trend toward more freedom and democracy -- but that could change."
...Governor George W. Bush, 5/22/98

"One word sums up probably the responsibility of any Governor, and that one word is 'to be prepared'."
...Governor George W. Bush, 12/6/93

"Verbosity leads to unclear, inarticulate things."
...Governor George W. Bush, 11/30/96

"I have made good judgments in the past. I have made good judgments in the future."
...Governor George W. Bush

"The future will be better tomorrow."
...Governor George W. Bush

"We're going to have the best educated American people in the world."
...Governor George W. Bush 9/21/97

"People that are really very weird can get into sensitive positions and have a tremendous impact on history."
...Governor George W. Bush

"I stand by all the misstatements that I've made."
...Governor George W. Bush to Sam Donaldson, 8/17/93

"We have a firm commitment to NATO, we are a part of NATO. We have a firm commitment to Europe. We are a part of Europe."
...Governor George W. Bush

"Public speaking is very easy."
...Governor George W. Bush to reporters

"I am not part of the problem. I am a Republican."
...Governor George W. Bush

"A low voter turnout is an indication of fewer people going to the polls."
...Governor George W. Bush

"When I have been asked who caused the riots and the killing in LA, my answer has been direct & simple: Who is to blame for the riots? The rioters are to blame. Who is to blame for the killings? The killers are to blame."
...George W. Bush

"Illegitimacy is something we should talk about in terms of not having it."
...Governor George W. Bush 5/20/96

"We are ready for any unforeseen event that may or may not occur."
...Governor George W. Bush 9/22/97

"For NASA, space is still a high priority."
...Governor George W. Bush, 9/5/93

"Quite frankly, teachers are the only profession that teach our children."
...Governor George W. Bush , 9/18/95

"The American people would not want to know of any misquotes that George Bush may or may not make."
...Governor George W. Bush

"We're all capable of mistakes, but I do not care to enlighten you on the mistakes we may or may not have made."
...Governor George W. Bush

"It isn't pollution that's harming the environment. It's the impurities in our air and water that are doing it."
...Governor George W. Bush

"[It's] time for the human race to enter the solar system."
...Governor George W. Bush

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