It just doesn't make sense...

So a grim note to start up the blog again, but I need to get all the thoughts out of my head....

I got a call from the teacher I work with about an hour ago... she informed me that one of the other early childhood teachers had died this weekend. It's a bit of a shock. Something I definitely wasn't expecting to hear. She's so young... like late twenty's I'm guessing. I saw her Thursday at work. And she died of an asthma attack.... apparently only 4,000 people a year die from asthma.

I just can't wrap my head around it... there is no way it makes sense in my head. I'm sure it will hit me walking into work tomorrow morning... and there is a big chance I won't sleep at all tonight. It's just so creepy and wrong and weird.

I don't want to end up seeming inappropriately unemotional at work, which has happened to me in the past, but I suppose I don't know how I will feel. I kind of knew her. I interacted with her. We were supposed to have a room connected with her next year. I was supposed to see her tomorrow at summer school.... It just doesn't make sense, and I hope it does hit me... I think I need to feel something other than confusion right now... even though I know all too well that confusion and denial is supposed to happen it just adds all the more to extended senselessness....

Sew monkey sew!!

So It's been a while... quite a while.... since my last post. Probably due to job 2. I hate that I have no social life (aside from Quizzo every Wednesday) and the job pretty much sucks right now... It's prom season... But I keep telling myself, if I can just get through May all will be well and good. My mom keeps telling me to think of the money. I just keep thinking about how much I miss my pillow...

When I'm not working, I'm sewing. I finished my quilt for Kelly's wedding (left) and now I'm on to another one, as well as a billion other mini projects. I wanted to make my mom some wine glass coasters for mother's day... but I doubt I'll actually have the time to fiddle around to see if the design in my head will actually work.

In other news, my weekend at Purdue was... entertaining to say the least. I would also have to add the words "unexpected" and "ewwwe" to the description.... Lots of drinking... lots of shirtlessness (well, I wasn't shirtless) and a little bit of nasty flood water from the bathroom in the kitchen. The weather was beautiful, my friends' home brew was delicious, and the weekend was an all around winner. It was nice to have a weekend where I didn't actually have to work. But I will basically be bound to Mr. Tux for the rest of May. Okay, I lied a bit, I'm going to Florida for Memorial Day weekend with Mark :-) Hopefully we will go to the over-priced and probably-less-exciting-than-I'm-expecting Disney World.

And now I shall be off to iron and do other un-exciting prep work for my quilt!

Yay Babies!!! (and other ramblings...)

So my Aunt finally had her baby on St. Patrick's Day!! A little boy! His name is James (after my Grandpa) Michael Phillips. I have yet to see him, but I'm sure he's absolutely adorable! It will be exciting to have another baby in the family again, since our youngest is almost 5! No doubt that this will be the last baby of the family until us grandkids get around to it. so YAY BABY!

EDIT: Saw the baby last night! He's Perfect!!



Also, the coming of spring is exciting me :-) I enjoy the warm weather and all the flowers blooming! I highly doubt that there will be any more snow this year, although the past few years I believe we've had it well into April. We shall have to see. Happy First Day of Spring everyone!

St. Patrick's Day this year was AWESOME! I went with my friend Phil to see Flogging Molly at the Congress Theatre in Chicago. It was absolutely insane! The mosh pit was a much needed energy/stress relief for me. I'm surprised I didn't drop 10 pounds from all the sweat dripping off of me when we left. It was seriously nasty, but fully worth it. I did come away with quite a few bruises, which look terrible, but again, just all part of the moshing experience.

And as a good end to a good week, I found out that I do in fact have a job next year. The district is cutting a lot of jobs, and I happened to be on the bottom of the seniority list for teacher's aides and other support staff, but I somehow got lucky. I get to stay with the teacher I am currently working with too, which is an added bonus. Now I just need to find a part-time job/night speech pathology grad school program. I'm not sure that night programs exist for speech... I'm having trouble finding decent full-time programs. We will have to see.

I hate it... but I LOVE it

So in the past two weeks my work-out routine has suffered, as is reasonable. Of course the stress and depression have added to my snacking... as well as all the wonderful people who made delicious stress food for our family (ie sending brownies, cheesecake, cookies, fried food) And I accept all of that as natural. Although it took some time and a little slacking off... I did finally get my ass in gear. I realized I truly do enjoy sweating and the soreness that comes with my workouts. And I find myself feeling better about me, even if I haven't really noticed any results (nor the wii fit noticing any either...) I'm finding myself wanting to push more in my workouts and some of it is getting a little easier, or I get through more of the workout. I suppose I don't know why I waited so long to actually work out. I really cannot wait for summer and for all the bike riding and frisbee playing that will ensue :-)

In other news, our trivia team finally won on Wednesday! Horray Disasterous Raptors! This means $50 of bar fun next week! (and hopefully another win!)

Other bar related excitement: I found a bar that is now serving Murphy's stout (and red) on tap! I think I scared the bartender last night with my enthusiasm over it. Mark suggested they may be starting to sell it here in America, which would really be an excitement to me :-)

And my last tidbit of blab for the day... the Illini are losing to Purdue... but I suppose they have time to come back. I-L-L I-N-I!!

Quilting!!!

So I am embarking on another quilting mission! (Unfortunately it's kinda top secret so I cannot reveal much...) I am very excited!
I think my first real gift-quilt turned out exquisitely! Thanks to my dear Heather, I finally have pictures to stroke my ego with!

Voila! The amazing front of the quilt! I chose a pastel base for the colors with floral prints accenting. I think my pattern also turned out pretty cool too! The pinky-purpley bit was supposed to be more diamondy looking, but I like the pattern it makes when you squint your eyes at it a bit or look at the picture from afar. The back is fleece with a border of the same floral used in the purple squares.

It's a totally cuddly quilt meant to be destroyed with love!

Mostly, I'm really proud of myself for actually doing it and finishing it! Quilting is very much a stress-reducing activity for me (although it can cause a bit of stress on its own...) I enjoy it completely!!

I'll have to wait a little while to have any info/ pictures of my next project... but I promise it'll be awesome!!

And less than a year later...

We're dealing with this crap again. My Grandma is in the hospital. Seven years of fighting cancer, and now there is nothing the doctors can do for her, except send her home. They say she has a tumor in her chest that is pushing on her lungs and heart, and they have given her 2 to 3 weeks. It's just so.... sucky. I can't think of a better word... I'm still trying to get over my Grandpa passing... I really don't think my family is ready for this. I suppose this time we have time to prepare, say our goodbyes, but it still so sucks. I'm glad that the hospital is sending her home. She wants that, and I think she needs it. I just don't want to accept it, nor deal with it... My aunt is extremely pregnant and due sometime in March. I just pray and hope that my Grandma can see, or even hear, about the new baby. It just all hurts....

Tony is trying to kill me...

So today was day one of my new workout routine. Day one = Core! I am absolutely determined to go through with it, in hopes that I will look awesomely amazing by my birthday (which is coincidentally the last day of the program). I have the will power as of now... but I'm not so sure I have the body power to just jump right in... Each workout is about an hour long, but I was only able to do 40 minutes... Which actually thinking about it, is pretty good for someone who has been relatively in-active (exercise wise). All I can do is keep working and hope I get better! Go me!

In other news, I have two interviews on Wednesday for part-time jobs. Here's hoping I get one of them! Better yet, both of them! Perhaps I will have a choice!

I suppose that is all for now... I hope this gets more interesting...

Back in Black... well... okay... Pink

So with the recent explosion of all my friends blogging again, I decided it was high time I tried it again... I think I just gave up due to my lame-ass writing skills... but I have recently discovered that I need to actually try to see results.

So even though living at home kinda sucks... I still feel less stressed, and thus less of a bitch. This is always a good thing! And it's not like I don't have a social life. I'm out every Wednesday night with the guys at Quizzo, and I usually have stuff to do on the weekends!

And I love my job! The kids are so awesome and amazing!! They have seriously made me reconsider my future career options... Now I just need to get my butt in gear so I can apply to grad school and not stay a home-bum.
I recently applied for a second job... I have two interviews coming up which is a good sign, especially in this crap-hole of an economy.

Also on my recent "life-list" is the idea of working out. I got a Wii-fit which is nice and all for keeping track of weight goals, etc. but I and going to start something a bit more intense. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping I won't chicken out of it and start being lazy again. I need to do this, for myself, to prove that I just need to get out there and do it. I know I can do it!

On another positive note.. I have been having a creative kick lately! I think all those pre-school art projects have really paid off! I have a bunch of sewing projects slated! Very exciting!!

Well, I suppose now that I have caught up, basically, all my other posts will probably seem less random and pointless :-P