what I see

I intended this to be a song... although it'll probably never be sung outside of my head.

The subject is pretty straightforward and frank. It's meant to be obvious.

It's the first thing besides papers that I've written in a while and it's actually a shock to me that it's on this topic...
but anywho.... enjoy

What I See

Make-up lies
Unreal size
I don’t fit in

You tell me
You have to be
Just like them

Paparazzi
Starbuck coffee
It’s all the fuckin’ same

Bleach blond hair
Like I care
I want to escape

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see

Magazines
And beauty queens
Why do I feel so lost?

Many guys
Fashion crimes
Superficial has become norm

Hollywood
If you could
We’d all bow down

Come on Barbie
Let’s go party
It’s all about wastin’ life

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see

Veggie spas
Botox moms
I can’t tell what is real

Huge cars
Skanky bars
We just can’t stay still

Crack cocain
It’s insane
We have to be like that

Size two
Nothin’ new
And you’re ugly if you’re not

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see

Come on mirror
You must be wrong
Everyone is six foot tall

Skinny jeans
Sex for dreams
It’s all about money

Pilled erection
To perfection
We just have to all fit in

Self mutilation
Lost all communication
To me…

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see

I’m not you
But I’m not me
I’m exactly what you see

Everyday
I loose my way
In the sea of false beauty

Compromise
My bad disguise
I can only cry… so much

I have to be
What I see
Inside

Find me again
And sweep me off my feet
I can’t understand
How I got so far from me

One day I’ll love
Just as much as I feel
Until then
I’ll just be
Exactly what I see